another day

I wake up every morning in huge amounts of pain in my shoulder, neck, wrist, and elbow. I realize that my kids do not and will never know just how much pain I am in, but i stay in the army for them. This is the only life they know, with three out of four being born into this life and harm only being 9 months old when this all started. There are moments in everyday that i think maybe i should just let the army get rid of me and I can see about getting a job back home and living a normal life with my friends and family. I know thats not what is happening but its something i have missed so much since i have been in the army. I dont have a normal life, i am missing out on so many things back home. I always wanted my kids to grow up with stable friends, and be around family and my friends and their kids. being stationed closer to home has actually made me miss home that much more since i am so close but just cant get there as much as I want to. Its another morning and back to the grind of the army and dealing with the pain my body is in...

Today

Im going to try and post everyday if I can.